So I am well on my way of completing my summer goals:

• Graphic Design Internship
  
• Concert Photographer
• Finish Graphic Design Portfolio
• Finish Concert Portfolio
• Finish General Photography Portfolio
• Make a Zine
• Complete Website

The big two are done, they were the only ones that involved other people and the processes of hiring.

but just putting it out there cause I am in my best mood in WEEKS:

I’ve got a great day and night job, look at me!

And cause I feel like it, this was my personal favorite Michael Jackson song:

I’ve run out of design books just as I have ample amount of time to read due to my hour plus commute every day. However, instead of chosing to restock on thoughs, I am going back to my literary passion of fiction.

Just Finished reading:

Currently Reading:

Will Read:

blog I’m sorta really into: The Boobs

For the last few days, this needs to be the 1st thing I listen to when I wake up.

sorry for the lack of updates and work on the site. I just started an internship at:

and so far so good.

I’ll come back to you dear website for the last touches, I promise!

[this is the last song I have to hear at night/ omgbowiemarryme,orjustholdmeinyourarmskaythanksbye]

Buy staying at home for the last few weeks in a desperate attempt to find some sort of internship, I’ve become re-acquainted with my old itunes. It mosty holds all the music I listened to during my freshmen to senior years of high school (03-07) and I can safety say I am not ashamed of my past musical taste at all. So heard, listen to some oldies (most of the music that isn’t old, I don’t know if you consider six years to be old).

[it honestly pisses me off that in the states you cannot embed the actual music video. Its one of my favorites of all time... bull, but this live version sends chills]

[to be completely honest, I recorded that year VMA's on VHS and played it non-stop for months. Hi, my name is Elaan, I was/ am/ will always be a Huge NIN]

I honestly feel that i had better musical taste during the depths of puberty than I do now. Here is my desperate cry for new music, I am bored with 70% of what I have (20% of that left over is Bowie, you can never get sick of Bowie). Recommendations please (and i have reached the point where dance music can be played but ONLY in moderation).

(photo recap)

I am just updating because I wanted to. I won’t be updating regularly for a while because I am thrusting myself into my work for numerous reasons. However, I’ve got so many random (mostly really bad) thoughts piling up in my head, and this seems like the perfect venue to get it out.

So what have I’ve been up to:

I don’t think I have such a large group of anonymous readers to have to really explain what I’ve been doing for the last 3 months. All of my friends know whats up, and for the most part, its been depressing (not the stuff you want to mention in a blog). But it’s put a lot of things into perspective of what I want for myself in the next 10 years or so. I don’t necessarily think I am  being too ambitious in my list of goals, but I’ve never been one to settle when it comes to work. The ever burning need to do something great keeps me up at night. It is the one thing about my mindset that scares me the most, the fact that there is no way for me to rest.

I keep on repeating to myself that I am unsatisfied that I am going to turn 20, and was forced to move back home, with no steady income, and because of a decrease in internship hiring, nothing work related (writting down these facts are making me extremely tense). A reason for me to make this blog was to share the experience of trying to become successful in my chosen fields, but I’ve become completely consumed with the notions of rejection and adequacy.

I really enjoy making list

In stead of letting this continue, I will listen to Tom Waits, and grow some balls. I’ve got some sorta talent in these bones, and there is nothing worse than becoming the one thing you hate (in my instance, weak). So this is my promise to you the public, and you can hold me to this. I’m giving myself a 14 day period, and most of the preparation period is only the next 5 days, to get my life into order. Just because I’ve hitting some significant slumps lately, doesn’t mean I am allowed to completely give up.

I am asking for your help though. If you know of any upcoming portfolio reviews, people who are looking for interns, publications that need an extra photographer, or just a place to work related to graphic of communications design I would REALLY appreciated (along with someone who has a FANTASTIC grasp of javascript and css who can teach me a few tricks) the heads up. I’ll post my work so you can see that it was worth it, and it would be nice to get some feedback from more than just one person.

PS. I am going to start running again, there was always a void of thoughts when running.

PSS: THE AMOUNT OF PHOTOS I HAVE STORED UP IS RIDICULOUS/ I want to buy a film point and shoot, ASAP

PSS: Insperation- GraphicHug

I’m on hatius. I’ll be back sooner than later.

I’ve been on huge Animal Collective kick lately, as with a lot of people.

Life update: I need to get myself together.

Okay, I am horrible with updating, I am not helping out my personal branding at all and it sorta is awful.  Add that on to the non-stop mount of homework and everything but the blog portion just shows all the html… the functioning html… what the fudge? Anyways, I am going to San Fransisco, so expect photos and if you know of anyone/ anything interesting over there, let me know.

It’s always good to try something new, and Michele was more than just good in my opinion. Really happy with how they came out.

GALLERY