rest [link still pending] here.

And the first week of spring semester has ended, and I sit here on a futon, waiting for my roommates to wake up so I can make as much noise I want while cleaning (I am a very noisy cleaner). I wish I could do this “blogz” justice by actually doing a good job describing what it is like to be a design student (blah blah blah), but I just continue to get so annoyed with too many things and I am sure it would come across in my writing. So I guess I can try (along with the visual dumps) to describe projects and steps. Lets see how long this will last, eh?

I need to update my link section… anyone got anything good.

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I’ll write a more detail look back on this show later. If you must know, I cooked dinner and have to recover.

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Interesting event, definitely one that I am glad I was able to go to. However, I couldn’t help cursing whomever was in charge of the lighting at this venue. Don’t get me wrong general public, this is one of my favorite spots in BK in terms of atmosphere. The concept of the space is an interesting one (Glasslands website) with its ever changing art installations, there is always something to look at. I can’t help but connect the space, mentally, to my tree house (its a good thing). But the lighting, O.M.G. THE LIGHTING! Its is godawful for 1) a photographer, 2) a photographer that prefers no flash, and 3) a photographer whose external flash has not been repaired.  Way too often I found myself thinking “Even if I had all the Nikon lenes my heart desired, these photos would be utter and completely indistinguishable”. Sadly though, I understand why Glasslands is in this predicament; it is an art space, period.

Can’t win them all, eh?

Screw me leaving the country for spring break, I need to save up to go to this!

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Its my 1st show in 3 months. Concert photography is like riding a bike, awkward when you start it again, but better after you get used to it.

• “What Type Are You“  by Pentagram (the password is in the description)
• http://www.computerarts.co.uk/in_depth/interviews
• http://stereogum.com/mp3/The%20Knife%20-%20Colouring%20Of%20Pigeons.mp3

and I want to make something…

I am going to try and do a “visual dump”. Its going to be a series of images that find really “neat” or intriguing. I figure I should do it by month, and try to update with at least 20 images every week. It will be interesting to do the correlation between how I feel per month, and the images I chose.

Visual Dump - January 2010

lets talk about books shall we?

Finished reading:

Currently reading:

Will be reading:

To live life with ever fiber of my being.

an oldie:

I have written these lengthy entries about my feelings concerning 2009. Explanations for my behavior, most of which i do not feel the need to go back and dwell on.

Dear 2009
Every concept of what kind of person I am , what kind of creative person i want to be, or how I react to people was flipped upside down, and now there is just this… indescribable feeling of pure anxiety, sadness, want and need for greatness, an epic longing, resentment and excitement for what I could possibly do.
You made me realize the importance of grieving, and coping. I doubt I would have been erratic if I managed to take care of all the awful feelings taking me hostage.
You taught me about my relationships. I stayed in friendships that we toxic due to the most intense and lasting sense amount of self loathing that I have ever undergone. I allowed myself to get walked over, screamed at and underestimated by a slew of people who are just as, if not even more insecure as I am.
You made me long for my true friends, and realize that despite how much I may love my work, that I truly cannot cope with it if I just stay locked indoors for months at a time. Work becomes a chore instead of the exploration that I love, and I just become crazy.
But the worse part of you 2009 is that you made me realize how angry I am. There is something to be said about suppressing your feelings, and I never realized that I did it so much that it is actually affected my heart.

I think I noticed all the awful things about myself in 2009,
and 2010 is all about just trying to fix these things.
I think I should just pick up my camera again and do projects because I see something in them again.
I got a little lost there, didn’t I?